Today our adoption ticker at the top of the blog sat at 9 months - 9 months since we started this adventure and journey to our son. We are only a little over 3 months on the waitlist and unofficially #48.
Although I know it's really 40 weeks for pregnancies, the 9 month marker has been emotional for me. Having been blessed with two pregnancies, I KNEW when my babies were supposed to arrive (well, an estimate as they both came early!!) I expreienced their progress, felt every kick, heard their heartbeat. This time around everything is different and I have been challenged. I LONG to know when my baby will be coming home. I wonder if he will be here for the holidays of 2011? Will he be home before his first birthday? When will we first hear his name? see his face? kiss his cheeks? experience his birthplace? So many questions and unknowns which can create anxiety but as we wait, I must hold onto the truth:
Isaiah 40:31 But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
HE already knows the answers to all my questions so to Him, there is no unknown. He is our beginning and our end and everything in between. With every challenge, I know there is joy. I've already expereienced that! I wouldn't change where we are for an INSTANT because although challenging and different than my expecting expereience in the past, where do we grow and learn the most? That day I hold my sweet boy will be all that much sweeter and that much more special and unique. I will not have expereienced THIS with any of my other kiddos (well, unless we adopt again some day!) How awesome is that?
I rest knowing that our baby boy will be with us someday and we can continue to wait upon Him to give us our strength.
2 Cor. 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
HE is doing amazing things in us as we have been waiting and wait we will! 9 more months or however more it will take to have him home with us.
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